2004-07-07 [gek]: everybody's feeling better? good :D

2004-07-07 [amgone]: yeash

2004-07-07 [gek]: oki

2004-07-07 [Acidic Khemica]: lol

2004-07-07 [gek]: you're having a good time don't you?

2004-07-07 [blinx4436]: i am

2004-07-07 [EmJ Taylor]: Hello, Kurus.

2004-07-07 [blinx4436]: what is Kurus?

2004-07-07 [EmJ Taylor]: What do you mean, "What is Kurus"? Kurus is the NAME of another member in here. It's not that trivial. ;)

2004-07-07 [blinx4436]: sorry... just diddnt see that name before.....

2004-07-07 [EmJ Taylor]: Oh. Hehehe. It's ok. :)

2004-07-07 [blinx4436]: alright ^_^

2004-07-07 [Here's where the story ends]: So, how are you, Blinx?

2004-07-07 [blinx4436]: im good. how are you?

2004-07-07 [gek]: so who is KURUS???

2004-07-07 [blinx4436]: i dont kno..

2004-07-07 [Here's where the story ends]: Kurus is a member, Idril. Kurus has been here a couple of times before. I recognise the name.

2004-07-07 [Indigo Butterfly]: can i join?

2004-07-07 [Kitten Leath Feral]: Kurus is this really sweet guy who is a very good friend to have. You should all get to know him. 

2004-07-07 [dendrite.]: what u ppl saying about my kurus?!?!?!??!!?

2004-07-07 [EmJ Taylor]: Yes, you can Join. Hello, Kat.

2004-07-08 [Mira Ravenheart]: hello ^^

2004-07-08 [EmJ Taylor]: Hello, "Faith". How are you?

2004-07-08 [Acidic Khemica]: hello

2004-07-08 [Here's where the story ends]: Hello, Akiratetsuo. How are you doing? Welcome, Faith.

2004-07-08 [Acidic Khemica]: hi

2004-07-08 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: now why are we not alowed to use shorthand?

2004-07-08 [EmJ Taylor]: Because it is annoying and some people don't like it. Heh.

2004-07-08 [Kurus_Dreaon]: well im glad to see pl are speakin well of me for once lol...hows everyone

2004-07-08 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: i dont find it annoying... no one should be able to inpede on anyones right to do what they want...

2004-07-08 [gek]: hahaha, okay I now know who KURUS is... :$ :P hi everyone...

2004-07-08 [Here's where the story ends]: I didn't mean to "inpede" on anyones right. They can use it if they wish. It doesn't bother me. I was referring to mispelt words.. as sometimes I do not fully comprehend what some people message me... that was all.

2004-07-08 [gek]: ok

2004-07-08 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: o... now i get it

2004-07-08 [gek]: what do you get?

2004-07-08 [Here's where the story ends]: It's no problem, Carpe Diem. If you wish to write using short hand, you may.

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: *falls to her knees*

2004-07-09 [ghostII]: hi, im back and i got some badges^^

2004-07-09 [Kurus_Dreaon]: yay for you

2004-07-09 [Rain Kissed Angel]: .......*cries softly*......

2004-07-09 [Kurus_Dreaon]: whats wrong? dont cry *hugs dee*

2004-07-09 [Rain Kissed Angel]: *still crying* kat told me about riku....and i didnt belive her...i didnt want to belive her.........*cries more*

2004-07-09 [Kurus_Dreaon]: what about riku? i think i missed something here

2004-07-09 [Rain Kissed Angel]: ..........i have to go...... *still crying* good night.....

2004-07-09 [Kurus_Dreaon]: im sorry.....night.....*hugs*

2004-07-09 [gek]: yeah I think I missed something too...:(

2004-07-09 [Eloura]: hello.

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: riku?what happened

2004-07-09 [gek]: haay...:(

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: what happened

2004-07-09 [gek]: I'm not sure... something 'bout riku, but I actually have no Idea who that is... :(

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: riku is my husband

2004-07-09 [gek]: ow well you should know it then...?

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: i know and that is the strange part

2004-07-09 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: haki?

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: huh

2004-07-09 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: it means "what?"

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: oh

2004-07-09 [blinx4436]: hello

2004-07-09 [EmJ Taylor]: Dee, sweetie. Are you alright?

2004-07-09 [EmJ Taylor]: Welcome, Jade. *Wink, wink* *Nudge, nudge*

2004-07-09 [EmJ Taylor]: Er. Jade.

2004-07-09 [Acidic Khemica]: .............

2004-07-10 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: ...?

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: heh

2004-07-10 [Rain Kissed Angel]: ......... *stares blankly into nothingness*

2004-07-10 [Kurus_Dreaon]: hey aall....hey dee....you ok?

2004-07-10 [Here's where the story ends]: Dee, are you alright?

2004-07-10 [Rain Kissed Angel]: *slowly rocks back and forth*

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: *walks up to dee*

2004-07-10 [Rain Kissed Angel]: *hugs akiratetsuo*

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: *hugs dee angel*it will be okay

2004-07-10 [Rain Kissed Angel]: now i know how they felt....worring....

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: *pulls out a crystal*riku is going to pay

2004-07-10 [Our Lady of Sorrow]: what did he do?

2004-07-10 [Rain Kissed Angel]: *looks in akir's eyes* no, he has already payed enough.....things will just get wrose for him.......i know....form experince.....

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: *pulls out her shadow blade*

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: *eyes turn red*

2004-07-10 [gek]: what happened?

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: a long story

2004-07-10 [gek]: ow.... hope it will be better... I sounds pretty :(...:(

2004-07-10 [Here's where the story ends]: Dee..what exactly happened with Riku?

2004-07-10 [Acidic Khemica]: well i cant say it any more it hurts so much to talk about it

2004-07-11 [gek]: :(

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: it is to painful for me right now

2004-07-11 [Rain Kissed Angel]: ................. the same thing that happened to me....excpt he tryed to use a gun............

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: heh ya i know what did you use........i broke the mirror in my room and cut my wrist 17 times

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: Look, most of us in this wiki have speculated suicide. It is justvery sad that Riku did that. He is getting as much support as possible from this wiki but I suggest that he needs professional help. He will probably end up being referred to a psyc. unit for a while, couple of months until the doctors make up their minds. That is NOT a bad thing. Most people shy away when the word HOSPITAL is involved. Some people need it, self help groups just are'nt enough. It wasn't enough for me when I was hospitalised for about seven months. I just pray he will be alright and if he does end up in a unit, at least he will be getting the correct help. Hope you are all well today. Blessings to all.

2004-07-11 [Rain Kissed Angel]: .......it is nothing to brag about...and i still do it! i cant help myself....i cut myself with a broken peice of glass.......

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: ya m2

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: Who was bragging, Dee? Well, I used to cut myself too. However, that isn't the best way to relieve the pain. It may seem like it now but in the long term, it isn't. Think about the scars you will have once you have stopped doing it. I am sorry to be blunt, but it is true. The scars are terrible. They will be for life, everywhere you go, they will be there. People watching, wondering why you have scars.. that was one of the reasons why I stopped. I was STRONGER than my will to cut myself. I have so much faith in all of you here in my wiki. I KNOW you can all be STRONGER than your self harm or your depression. It is just difficult. I know you can do it. You should all try that next time..

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: *looks at chamber wierdly*

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: ...next time you want to cut, just look at the piece of glass for EG, Dee and say outloud, "Fuck off, I don't need you". Literally. Just put it away. Under your bed. Leave the room and watch something interesting. The feeling you will feel then will be wonderful. You are BEATING the will to self harm. You are WINNING over your depression. You can all do it, I know you can. It is not an issue about "bragging", Dee. I didn't appreciate that comment. That is not the case at all. I hope that you will try that for me next time you want to cut. Even if you CONSIDER it, I will be ever so proud of you. Blessings, all. x

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: whatever.....

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: No, don't look at me wierdly, it is the truth what I have written. I am the same person as [Here's where the story ends]. The founder of this wiki. I just wish to help all of you. I just wish you would try and take my advice. *Sighs*

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: *looks away and summons a shadow blade*

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: Perhaps I just ought to close this wiki, then. I spend hours trying to help all of you and you just comment with "Whatever". I spend time bothering to care and bothering to help.. *shakes head*

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: sry i am just not in a good mood

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: For the record, I DO care. I spend my time creating and editing this wiki all the time and attempting to help all of you. I take at least two hours to three hours a day trying to help people who message me. Nice to know I am appreciated, eh? *Sighs*

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: i do apreciate you its just im not in the best mood

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: And you think I am in a good mood, Aki? I am never in a good mood. I have been seriously ill. I saw images of dead people, heard voices calling my name, I cut up most of my body, I drowned myself, I slit my throat, I stayed in a bed for a month straight, I didn't wash, I didn't eat, I didn't talk, I would shake and shake and see things everywhere and would be confused, I would cry about four hours a day, I would smash up my room to get relief of my pain, I would break all my furniture in the hospital. Believe me, I am NEVER in a "good" mood. I have been through a LOT. Plenty more than the average person. That is why I created this wiki because I understand. I am actually offended ..

2004-07-11 [EmJ Taylor]: ..that no one takes my advice. All I do is help. I understand you are in a bad mood. Just don't let your bad mood come towards me, please. I am not an enemy. I really don't know. Perhaps I should just delete this. Good day, all. Hope you all have a good night. Blessings to all.

2004-07-11 [Acidic Khemica]: sry i have been to a penetentary because of my moods and all that stuff and it sucked

2004-07-12 [Rain Kissed Angel]: i will try my best.....i have been trying........so many things are on my mind, as if riku wasnt enough.....

2004-07-12 [Kurus_Dreaon]: just to say some of what youve said has helped me....really...ive had bad times lately.....voises and what not...it aint fun...and some of the things youve said have helped...im glad i found this place.....so please dont shut it down....or anything like that....i do appreciate everything you do here very much

2004-07-12 [TheWrongGirl]: You have helped me too alot. I have found a new place in my life and know that i mean something and most of it was b/c of you helping me.I dont know what i would have done if you wouldnt have been talking to me. I get along with my dad more now and i am getting really close with a guy in my life..So I"d like ot thank you soo much for everything and know that i care about you jsut as much as you cared about me. I'm thankful to have found you when i needed you most.

2004-07-12 [Avoral]: Hmm... I don't suppose this place is looking for further contributors to the gradual betterment of local sanity?

2004-07-12 [EmJ Taylor]: I am glad we have helped you, [Kurus_Dreaon] and [TheWrongGirl]. That is what we are here for. I am glad you are back, [TheWrongGirl]. It is nice to hear from you. =) I am glad you think I have managed to help you. I am glad you are feeling better! That's the main point. :)

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: what does that mean avoral

2004-07-12 [EmJ Taylor]: Thank you for your comment, [Avoral]. However, if it was a mallicious comment, I suggest you keep it to yourself in the future.

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: lol yup thats avoral

2004-07-12 [blinx4436]: lol

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: heh

2004-07-12 [Rain Kissed Angel]: 2 [EmJ Taylor]: i do take your advice. and i dont want you to end this page. i am better now. and i'm going to be on a medical leave here soon.

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: heh

2004-07-12 [gek]: huh

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: nuthin

2004-07-12 [Rain Kissed Angel]: ....

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: heh

2004-07-12 [gek]: heh... ah...

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: .........

2004-07-12 [gek]: ................? how're u?

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: good and you

2004-07-12 [gek]: cold... :(

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: oh

2004-07-12 [gek]: but I'll be going soon, because I guess I'm catching a cold :(

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: oh okay

2004-07-12 [EmJ Taylor]: Sorry to hear you have got a cold.

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: ya

2004-07-12 [gek]: :( I'll be fine...

2004-07-12 [Avoral]: Oh, it was actually a benign comment. I was asking if you guys needed a little help around here.

2004-07-12 [Avoral]: Not everything I do is entirely bastardly.

2004-07-12 [EmJ Taylor]: Hahaha. I know you didn't say it in a bastardly way. ;). Well, I am looking for new members and some help, so, yes.

2004-07-12 [Acidic Khemica]: im back

2004-07-13 [blinx4436]: me too

2004-07-13 [Avoral]: Oh, cool. Do you guys post on some central page, or is it mostly just in comments boxes?

2004-07-13 [gek]: ???

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: Mostly in private messages and in these comment boxes. I wish to expand my wiki, though.

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: ..........

2004-07-13 [gek]: .....

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: heh

2004-07-13 [gek]: hi

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: hello

2004-07-13 [gek]: what's up?

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: How are you all doing today? Hope well.

2004-07-13 [gek]: I'm fine.... having a fight with my parents but that's normal

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: Heh. That is what parents are for. To be annoying and to pick fights. XD. Don't let them get to you, though. Be stronger. =)

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: heh

2004-07-13 [gek]: yeah that's what family is for... :)

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: *sits down*

2004-07-13 [gek]: what's wrong?

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: nothing..........

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: Could you PLEASE keep one worded responses in private messages. This is a wiki, not a chat room. ;). Thank you.

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: sry *looks away*

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: No problem. ;). I just like to see more on my wiki rather than just "Hi" or "Heh" all the time. :)

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: *lays on the ground*

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: So, how are you today, Akir?

2004-07-13 [Acidic Khemica]: fair i guess

2004-07-13 [gek]: yeah that's right i guess too... :)

2004-07-13 [blinx4436]: hello

2004-07-13 [gek]: haay

2004-07-13 [blinx4436]: ^_^

2004-07-13 [Here's where the story ends]: Hello, Blinx. How are you? Hope you are all doing well in here.

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: im back

2004-07-14 [Here's where the story ends]: Welcome back. Hope you are doing well. I wonder where Dee has got to. It is getting rather quiet this wiki..

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: oh heh i dont know

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: i got back on again. i didnt miss much, did i?

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: nope

2004-07-14 [EmJ Taylor]: No, not really. Hope you are all doing well.

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: i am ^_^ you?

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: huh?

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: i asked you if you were doing ok.

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: oh heh ^_^im doing fair

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: thats good

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: yup yup yup a pup

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: lol =^_^=

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: mmhmm

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: uhhh....now what?

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: dunno

2004-07-14 [blinx4436]: me neither....... change of topic?

2004-07-14 [Kurus_Dreaon]: hey ppls...whats up

2004-07-14 [EmJ Taylor]: Please, discuss something relevant, people! =)

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: huh

2004-07-14 [EmJ Taylor]: Like not saying "huh" a million times. Thank you.

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: oh okay ^_^

2004-07-14 [EmJ Taylor]: Heehee. Thank you. Do you know where Dee is?

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: no i dont

2004-07-14 [Kurus_Dreaon]: she was on the other day but she didnt talk to me...and i havent seen her today at all

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: me nether

2004-07-14 [EmJ Taylor]: Oh..because she wasn't doing too well. I hope she is better, nonetheless. Has anyone heard from Riku? I know he has been around as he has read my letter I sent to him, not replied to it though.

2004-07-14 [Acidic Khemica]: *looks away*

2004-07-14 [Kurus_Dreaon]: i havent sadly...not in a long while now....sorry

2004-07-15 [blinx4436]: hello [EmJ Taylor]

2004-07-15 [Acidic Khemica]: *sits down*

2004-07-15 [Kurus_Dreaon]: *sits next to akiratetsuo* you ok?

2004-07-15 [blinx4436]: *sits across from both of you*

2004-07-15 [Acidic Khemica]: fine...*rolls over

2004-07-15 [Kurus_Dreaon]: alright....just thought id ask.....im here if ya need to talik..though ya dont really know me.....ill listen if ya need me to

2004-07-15 [Acidic Khemica]: alright

2004-07-15 [EmJ Taylor]: Hmm, bah. I need new members for my wiki.